I have been extremely stressed lately and it is seriously NOT good! We have a lot on our plate right now and I am really struggling to keep balance with everything. I CANNOT wait to be done with school. I absolutely love that I have the opportunity to be back in school and especially that I can be doing something I love, BUT I miss my family soooooo much!! Cosmetology school is all based on a hour system and you need 2000 hours to graduate (in Utah), that is A TON of hours to be away from my family! I have 1,250 hours... and 750 to go. Right now 750 hours seems like a crazy amount, but I just have to keep reminding myself that I have made it this far and I HAVE to keep going. I know that Heavenly Father supports me in my decision to go back to school, I know my husband supports me, and I know that once I am done I will be so grateful that I did this for myself and my family!!
I find myself day dreaming lately about how wonderful it will be once I graduate and get to go back to regular life. I can hardly wait to go back to being home full-time with my children. Through going back to school I have really come to realize what a blessing it is to stay home with my children and what a privilege it is to be a mother.
Last night Court and I made Sunday dinner together, read scriptures with kids, and played a "Word of Wisdom" game for FHE (we have to do it on Sunday's with my schedule). The kids were being difficult and a little naughty and I was becoming very frustrated. It dawned on me however that I need to be grateful for my time with my family even if the kids are being bad. Kids are kids and they are going to be naughty from time to time.
I am so grateful for my husband and my children. They are my whole world and mean everything to me. I am grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who entrusted me with my precious family and who believes in me. I know that if I put my trust in him that I can make it through the next several months until I finish school!
This quote goes along nicely with how I am feeling...
Give thanks for what you are now, and keep fighting for what you want to be tomorrow. ~Fernanda Miramontes-Landeros