Where does the time go???

It has been quite awhile since I have posted. Really I can't believe how long it has been. I am seriously not even coming close to my new years resolution to blog more. Life has been SOOOOO busy lately and I really need to slow down, take a step back, and stop to notice all of the other things going on around me.

I am currently in California helping prep for the Mud-Run-4-Life that is taking place THIS SATURDAY. I really can't believe it is already here. I can't believe how huge it has gotten. I can't believe the outpouring of love and support we have received. I CAN'T BELIEVE I GOT MYSELF INTO THIS!!!!!!!!

I keep taking deep breaths and telling my self, "I can do this"! Just today alone I have answered at least 50 emails and have spent over 4 hours just on the computer for the mud-run. It is all completely worth it and I CAN NOT WAIT to see it all come together on Saturday. I can't wait to get all muddy in honor of my brother Jake. It is going to be an extremely emotional day. This idea, this crazy idea to put on a mud-run with my NON-RUNNING family, was my idea, I am diagnosing myself with stupidity (totally, absolutely worth it of course)! It has been SO MUCH WORK but it has been amazing to see all of this come together, to have the other 2 families who lost a son to suicide last summer in my parents town working with us endlessly with us to pull this off. Not only will Saturday be emotional because we will see all of our hard work come together, but sharing our stories of loss with over 400 people will be I believe both emotionally draining and healing all at the same time.

If only ONE person is touched by our event and chooses life over suicide then we have done our job. We want to reach out to those hurting and let them know that they are not alone and that there is help. I feel like this is my opportunity to give suicide a giant kick in the ass and I am going to take it :).

Aside from the Mud-Run taking over my life, our family has had some pretty huge life changes the past month. Court was offered a great opportunity with a new company. After LOTS of thought, tears, and prayer we have decided to take the job. We will be moving to Maui, Hawaii for a few years with this new company and then from there we are not sure where they will send us. I am both sad and very excited. I am so sad to have my kids switch schools again, it is killing me that we are doing this, but I feel like this will be an amazing opportunity for them to experience another culture. So much about this is so hard, but so much of it is so exciting. I still haven't wrapped my head around the whole idea.

Court has actually been in Hawaii for almost a month now. I am not going to lie, I am loosing my mind home alone with 4 kids, but I realize with blessings come sacrifices. I am trying to take it day by day, take deep breaths, and have been drinking an obscene amount of Cherry Coke. We would be there with him, but I had this little thing called the Mud-Run-4-Life and we already had a trip to Lake Powell booked for the first week of August, so I am single parenting it this summer while my husband works in Maui, SO-NOT-COOL! Our entire family MOVES to Hawaii right after our trip to Lake Powell. I am nervous and so excited all at the same time! It will most definitely be an adventure.